I love being a mother, it brings me so much joy. The first time I became a mother, I had no clue what to do but I seemed to start getting the hang of it. About 11 months before Ethan was born, I had a miscarriage at 10 weeks and I was so sad and I thought that I would never have a baby, but I did and I was so grateful to stay pregnant this time. Then we had Ethan on Dec. 2, 1996 in Cedar City UT and he was 3 1/2 weeks early. My water broke, when I was at school , but that is another story. I personally didn't want my kids to close in age and then when Ethan was almost 16 months old he got diabetes. We just moved to a new ward a few weeks before and then we noticed a few changes about him, he lost weight and he kept drinking water and I had to change him several times a day. Then he threw up one Sunday night and we decided to take him to the ER and we are glad that we did. His blood sugar was 550, but when the lab results came back it was over 800. We were planning on taking him to the doctor in the morning, but he probably would of slipped into a coma and we would of lost him. I know some of you have heard this story before, but I wanted to tell it again. I am so glad that he threw up that night because we wouldn't of known to take him to the ER right away and we still have him and he is almost 17 years old now. I love him so much, even though I don't tell him that often anymore. He made me a mother first and I love that.
Then when Ethan was 3 1/2 years old, I had an Ectopic Pregnancy and they had to take 1 of my tubes out and I was sad about that because we wanted another baby, but things happen. Then we had Zach in Feb. of 2002 in Cedar City UT (Super Bowl Sunday), about 2 months after Ethan turned 5 years old and we loved Zach so much and Ethan wasn't jealous at all, but our dog Dixie was and that was funny. When he was just a few months old, he started sleeping through the night and that was nice to have a child like that. Ethan wasn't like that at all. When he was about 8 months old, we decided to test him for Muscular Dystrophy ( I am a carrier of the disease, so my sons have 50/50 chance of having it) because I wanted to know and he had it and I was very sad because Ethan had diabetes and now Zach had Muscular Dystrophy. But I guess deep down I knew I could do this because I have heard that God doesn't give you more than you can handle, so I knew he had trust in me, but some days I wander about that. Then when Zach was in preschool, we found out he had a mild form of Autism and some days are really hard, when he has a melt down, but other days are okay because he has such a great memory when it comes to dates and numbers and I have to look in my journal to see if he is right and most of the time he is right.
Then Connor was born in Arizona on Oct. 29, 2004, Zach was 2 1/2 years old and Ethan was almost 7 years old. I had to have an emergency C-Section with him. Then we had 3 boys and it wasn't to bad, Ethan was a great helper and I could tell he loved his brothers so much and I think most days he still loves his brothers. I love all of my boys and I am so thankful to be a mother, it is one of the greatest blessings in my life.
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